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Dammit by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Dammit

Cynacism matches you You were always a fan of sarcasm To you I was the product of an unprotected orgasm A mistake, an accident Your future's impediment I do what you ask What you demand me to complete And to meet your expectations Is quite a feat But I never really get What you ever wanted A good group of friends And lead part in the play Isn't half as good As nine straight A's .... and I only have six classes Your tongue it lashes Like a whip of bitter scorn That's always left me torn But weakness is unforgivable in your eyes I'm sure you don't need another reason to chastise You disgust me With your false cheer And

Collaboration Of the Summer by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Collaboration Of the Summer

What I find a little a little more interesting is how our lives keep intersecting what I find intriguing but I’m not much minding how much more time for you I am finding * Kaisa, I know we both have our own insecurities but lets be adamantly sure about a few things the sky IS blue the grass IS green I really like you and you know what I mean I realize the mistakes I've made how I yelled and fought but now I know what makes me smile your face within a thought Kaisa, I know I'm a bit different maybe just crazy but believe me when I say you are nothing short of amazing * you say I have a way with words My own li

Memories or Ghosts? by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Memories or Ghosts?

Memories or Ghosts Which does more haunting? Recollections or rivals Which do more taunting? The only way to define you Is as a consistent conundrum Toying with me Is only part of your fun STOP! Oh, why won't you at least take a break? Please, Oh Please What kind of commotion are you trying to make I'm trying to get over you And you're walking around As if worshipped Where you staggered around What do you want from me? Ha! You don't know as well I know I didn't want this Or, Couldn't you tell You're attempting to entice me With your hypnotic stare You can't even see I'm trying not to care But trying and doing Are qu

Now Than Never by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Now Than Never

It's like playing darts With me for a board With all my secrets Out on the floor I'm sor ry For what I said And I know its damned to late But I figure Better Now than never To rectify my mis take I know you're sick of this Little orchestrated charade But I can't keep up This flexible facade The things we said Rolled off the tongue But it's already to late To right the wrong I'm sor ry For what I said And I know its damned to late But I figure Better Now than never To rectify my mis take "Care to share Whats on your mind" Thats what started it all The first time you came to me The first time you calle

More Than... by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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More Than...

I'm just a little more than a bit tired Of this game you've been playing Now, we find ourselves in The act of decaying I'm more than done making a fool of myself I'm more than done thinking this through And, I think, most importantly of all I'm more than done... (Whispers) With you! I change to just a friend And hope for things to improve Trying to salvage what we had Guess what? I lose... I'm more than done staying up all night Trying to figure out what i'm doing wrong And I'm more than done playing the good guy I've been doing that for far too long And you're sitting there wondering Why? Looking like your about to cry

One-Sided Conversation by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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One-Sided Conversation

Funny when things are goin' so good Just to dissapoint you when they go bad I find it really hard to miss What I never really had I've got myself to find Leave the messed up me behind What is it that I so greatly crave Can't be this sorrow or a shallow grave Ah, But I think you do know What you've been searching for all this time Someone who knows you're not worth A dozen for a dime Too true, I am But lets face the facts I'm too caught up in myself To lower my guard and relax And why is it, that you continue to do this? Shutting yourself is absouletly ludacris It was all those girls, the ones from the past The ones that sai

Theebion by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Theebion

Chapter 1: Wood to Wandering Thebion Phistbrol chopped the wood grudgingly, his white hair dripping with sweat. That was one of the unusual things about Thebion, he was only 19 years old, yet his hair was whiter than bone. Thebion was as tall as the average man, with eyes that were full of life and matched the azure ocean surrounding Gothoria. He had a broad face with a squared nose. He had a look of great concentration, and always gave the impression that he was contemplating more then he let on. He wore black, cloth trousers that were very loose on him and fell around most of his boots. He wore a set of inherited chain mail from his

The Fall of the Hero by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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The Fall of the Hero

My mask is off My identy shown That feeling of failure That ripples the bone I thought I saved my hero I was really quite mistaken My misdeed Left me Crippled, not shaken Without my mask, My protective shroud I'm at the mercy Of the callous crowd Stones to throw At their defender How could she hurt A heart so tender I have a weakness As do we all Being who I am Amplifies the fall There is a thing As loving too much But now my heart's Too cold to touch Thieves, Rogues, Crooks Have the upperhand They hang me on hooks Left at their desire A hole in the head Is all I aspire But no, Nothing can be that undemandin

Take the Time by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Take the Time

You don't need to make an effort That was always my job in the past Our relationship was so one-sided Maybe thats why we didn't last At first, neither one of us wanted to let go Shows how much things have changed, though Well, it's high time I shed my skin Shed my tears Shed my own instability Shed my fears Some things you can't just cast off Some things are wound so more than skin deep The pain, the agony Do you you wonder why I break down and weep? Some things are just to painful, last to long Those things have been around for centuries Written in word, spoken in song Well, its high time I stop feeling low Even though I tu

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Fallen Angel, Risen Demon by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Fallen Angel, Risen Demon

Chapter 1 Its amazing how much pain there is in the world. I have seen pain, I have seen agony beyond anything any human has seen. But, then again, I'm not human either. I have many names. Fiend, devil, demon, even so far as Angel of Death. But I can't claim all the credit, as sad as that may be. Lucifer earned most of those names. Funny that Lucifer, which means "Light-Bringer", could earn the name Son of Darkness. Obvious, Irony is not lost on the wicked. How odd it is for me to hear the title of my maker ... he created me from the bowels of Hell. He made me to claim souls for himself ... no .... Itself. Lucifer gave me mo

Unify by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Unify

Unify Come, there's a break in the system Assemble, they cannot stand our momentum Corruption, deception, all just a cheat A con, a hoax, with a little more deceit Fallen phoenix It comes from the ashes to the sky Rising to the occasion, let's… UNIFY! Unify, against one cause or one reason Let it be a protest, strike or treason Unify, gather, and join the rally From New York, Alaska or Cali Conglomerates consume Dooms-Dayers assume The Flowers of powers Come into bloom Some people don't even try Give up hope, break down and cry But for me, I just want to… UNIFY Unify, against the cause or the reason Let it be a protest,

The Life Of the Hero by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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The Life Of the Hero

Here I am, living the life of a hero Helpless, Self-less, and a little tormented Hopeless, copeless, and a little demented Its the classic situation, Save the girl, or save the city On my soul, may God have pity For through all the admiring eyes They never see the agony behind my disguise For whom to save and who to forsake? This is a dilema I cannot shake I am the hero to the city, but who is the hero to me? It is the girl Who means the world to a reject like me... I cannot do either, but I must do one But I cannot survive with the other one gone And I can't back down I can't give in Then the real chaos begins So many peo

Blessing and a Curse by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Blessing and a Curse

I know you like know one else would I love you more than anyone else could I know your darkest secerts I know your greatest regrets And you have no idea who I am... I watch you from the distance Only concerned for you If you were gone What would I do If you knew who I was And what I had to do You would never love me Like I love you Thats why you have no idea who I am... You're my obsession You're my passion You're the reason I still walk here I watch you're every laugh, smile, and tear I am here to save you But only when you need me most I live through this decision Not through burden, but by choice You're still in the d

Fallen Angel, Risen Demon Pt.2 by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Fallen Angel, Risen Demon Pt.2

Chapter 2 This was my hour. Darkness. I run from rooftop to rooftop, clearing acouple thirty feet here and there. I felt the wind rushing through my hair, the exhilerated feeling of flying through the hair. Unfortunetly, I don't have wings, like some of the other demons. But when you can clear five stories, I guess it makes up for it. Then came the scream. A women's scream. From the park by the sounds of it. I veered for the noise. I jumped from building to building, finally to a tree where I saw the hole scene. A young woman, maybe a teenager, was surrounded by five members all wearing bandannas and and leather cl

Relinquish Me by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Relinquish Me

I always pushed you away Just to save you from pain You always thought I was ok My feelings were always so plain You told me your private thoughts You told me the dreams you sought You told me how you want to be set free You even told me you once loved me But then there's always someone else Someone closer, Someone finer Someone cuter, Someone kinder And I just can't compete This is a battle I just can't win Another enemy I can't defeat A new predicamint I'm in You string me along Keeping me nipping at the heels You've had me for so long I just want something real I'm just a friend but I wish it could be so much more I'l

Constrained by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Constrained

I'm in a cell lacking the lock and key Looking for the once better side of me I once had it, you once knew Everything I did, I did for you You had that aura, that aura of granduer You had my love, but now I just need a cure You're inside me, and I can't make you dissapear Your poision has had perpetual effect, I fear I can't get away, even when I'm alone Now that your true colors are finally shone So I try to hide from view in isolation I'll just call it my heart-wretching vacation I'm thinking things through, wondering what I did wrong I don't know why I'm so hurt, we didn't last that long Just tell me my mistake, what I can do

That Side of Me... by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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That Side of Me...

There is a place, a place I hate to go A place of of dejection, a place I thought you'd never know Its a side of me that I thought you'd never see But now that I'm lost, that side has broken free This side is consuming, the Hyde to my Jeckel A predicamint I can't hit, a problem I can't tackle Its the rage of the beast, the scream of the storm So angry, so miserable, you've never seen me so forlorn You remember me as the one who was forever faithful So at peace, so calm, so trainquil Now you see this animal, heart full of ache, eyes fill of shame This fiend inside me, has brought me guilt, brought me shame Hell is repetition, and s

Fallen Angel, Risen Demon Pt.3 by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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Fallen Angel, Risen Demon Pt.3

Turns out the scream was just a flirtacious couple get a little to... "rowdy." As I continued my prowl through this hell-infested city, I couldn't help but think back to that girl. I've seen plenty of women before, I've even had sex with one, just to see if its as fun as humans make it to be. Turns out its a LITTLE over-rated. Still rather enjoyable, though. But her. There was something different. There was just something I couldn't put my finger on. Like I said before, about auras. The auras I sense around other Unworldly Beings. The Dark and Light auras. But she was different, yet identical. I could sense it, I could just

How Hard I Try by kn1ghtmar3, literature

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How Hard I Try

Never gave me the recognition I deserved The only time you gave me was reserved Payed the price, made the sacrafice But still the payment never did suffice I made you laugh, I made you smile Or at least I did for a while I took away your problems, got rid of your plights Helped you get through all the hurt, pains and fights I'd give you an hour of my time, and you'd smile for me Another only gave you a minute, and your happy as can be Can't you see why I'm so torn apart, Someone gives you a second, but i give you my heart Still it seems like that one second means more Even though that person has called you a slut; a bitch; a whor

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T by Dr3amlikeStat3, literature

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T

That boy fell asleep, took off before his feet under him there she lies both staring into each others eyes and he says I will never hurt you, I will never let you go In my arms you will stay until we both grow away Silence came upon them they talked without their words until she pulled back; afraid Knowing she's ready for him she says Kiss me here, touch me there she goes for it with a scare She knows shes safe with him there but he doesn't trust himself They hold each other in their arms never wanting to let go As happy as they'll be she rolls over him and whispers in his ear we might be far apart but our hearts are alway

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The Life Of the Hero

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Current Residence: Minnesota
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite photographer: ...
Favourite style of art: Water Color
Operating System: my pacemaker
MP3 player of choice: Micro Zen
Shell of choice: turtle
Wallpaper of choice: Off-shade turqoise
Skin of choice: mine
Favourite cartoon character: Nightcrawler
Personal Quote: "Defend those who cannot defend themselves"

Favourite Visual Artist

Musical artist... Crossfade

Favourite Movies

The Dark Knight

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Crossfade, 3 Doors Down, Linkin Park, Creed

Favourite Writers

R.A. Salvatore

Favourite Games

The Orange Box

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Shooters, RPGs

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My gun and my keyboard

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X-box 360, Comics, D&D, Sign Language

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kn1ghtmar3

Jan 2, 2009

Tales of my demise have been greatly exaggerated

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Hello, mein freunds, No, contrary to popular belief, I HAVE not sold my organs to game sharks, but rather, have neglected my page in pursuit of more fruitful endeavors, but recently realized that word craft has been a passion of mine, and one that has not been stimulated in quite some time. But what does this mean for you? Hold on, I'm getting to that.  I believe that a brief update would be nice.   I'm back with my girlfriend, and we've been dating around a year and a half (and yes, I'm so in love with her).  I'm in my senior year, planning on going to school for sign language, I had a concussion and seizure this previous football seaso

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kn1ghtmar3

Sep 4, 2007

About Damn Time!

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So yeah, about damn time  I come on here and update you all. So I believe last time I informed you, was before I left for my job. So I'll just share my (fairly) recent events in my life.  So yes, My first week there, due to my large (and hairy) stature, I was mistaken for a crew leader.. oh quick crash course MCC Rankings Head Staff(4 Members, Top dogs) Crew Leaders (21-26 yr. olds, Betas) Assistant Crew Leaders (19-23) Omegas Youth Leaders (16-17) Second year corpmembers with extra Responsibility Corpsmembers (15-18) SCUM! SO yeah, everythought i was not a corpsmember, but a CL... How silly of them. So everyone there the first week, w

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kn1ghtmar3

May 28, 2007

The Job

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Hey Hey y'all I know havn't put anything on here for a while... Well a couple weeks back, I applied for a job call MCC (minnesota Conservation Corps) well, I got a rejection letter, but said I would be put on the reserve list.  Well, Pete (the guy who called me, who is my hero) asked if I still wanted the job!   So I will be gone from June 17 to August 11.  Free room and board... 10 bucks an hour 8 hours a day...  Amazing So this means if I don't comment on your work, don't be offended, I'll be workign around the state, and saving the world one chipmunk at a time. Wow... Kurt

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Feb 6, 2009

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-Kaisa

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Nov 18, 2007

hey love! whenever you read this.. know im thinking about you. you are on my mind all the time. you are my best friend and the most fascinating person i have ever met. hehe..
know that

-kaisa

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Sep 7, 2007

sorry for thinking you wre a girl.

deamonofangels

Apr 30, 2007

You say woot woot 2?!? I thought that was just between me and my friend Courtney but obviously not.. Thank's for clearing that up!

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Jan 6, 2007

'Ello there. Thank you for adding me to your friends list I suppose. Hi! I don't really know you but oh well, would like. So... what's up?